you want something really really bad, but you can't have it. no matter what. it would require you to give up everything you know. start over.

time goes by. you busy yourself with other things. it hurts for a while. but your desire eventually fades. and it's odd, because that desire meant so much. it could have been the only time that desire was going to feel like that. but you forget. you almost want to forget.

time goes by. that thing you wanted is given to you. it's handed to you. just say the word. but you don't want it anymore. you've forgotten. you'd like to want it again. you think there's potential to want it again. but you've changed, and you feel it's for the better. you hope it's for the better. that thing you wanted may still be good for you, but you don't think you can take care of it.

time goes by